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Well, this time yesterday, I thought I had a job - not the most challenging one, to be sure: working as a Receptionist in the financial district of Downtown Montreal.  Don’t get me wrong - I was more than thankful for a steady paycheck, especially after the tremendous upheaval of the previous year.  I’d gone through divorce, relocation to a different city, and three moves.  Quiet and unchallenging was working for me - even if I was definitely getting inert and frustrated.

At the end of the day, I was told that my position was being entirely “abolished”.  I stumbled home, stunned and yet relieved - I had been shoring up against the inertia and the growing resentment and frustration I had at being under-employed and at the lack of stimulation or ability to truly give myself to the position.

Today I find myself frantically scouring want ads, while at the same time reminding myself that there is absolutely a silver lining:  my kids need me to be really present for the first days of their new schools in their new city.   I’d even say that I need to be really present for their first days of their new schools - I sorely missed that pleasure while they were living on the other side of the continent for the last year and a half.  Now it’s come back to me unexpectedly.

Come to think of it, most everything that has been miraculous in my life has happened without preparation or planning.  Separation and divorce, three years ago, brought me to Montreal with the love of my life - something I had desperately wanted since I was 17 years old, and drifted from bit by bit over the years.  And that is only one example.

Some of the people that have known me longest have considered me impulsive and unpredictable;  I certainly feel that some of the circumstances of my own life have been characterized by upheaval.  And yet, it always seems to shake things down to the strongest foundations:  love, creativity, family, freedom, inspiration, survival, energy.  I lost my job yesterday, and you’d better believe I need the money.  But today it’s strangely exhilarating - and I have this uncanny sense that anything is possible.

I am a great deal closer to inspiration and vision right now than I was 24 hours ago.  Fascinating how that works.

Your turn:

What catalysts have occurred in your life that have brought about unexpected miracles?

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